Shaz

It is really is a strange feeling growing up. Sometimes I feel like I am still a little kid playing dress ups and trying to be an adult. Most of the time, I am faking it just trying to make it.

I was discussing with an old highschool friend which one of our friends we thought would get pregnant first ... and apart from one who is married (& it has been confirmed, that she is not overly interested in having children), I supposely am in the running for being second (only one other friend has a steady boyfriend ... in all honestly, I am putting my money on her ... they have been going out tons longer!). KIDS?!?! ME?!?!?

I mean, I have always thought, yeah, one day ... but that is exactly it ... ONE DAY IN THE FUTURE!! I don't think marriage or sex is where i am at, at the moment. I mean, don't get me wrong ... I don't view these things as bad ... one day I plan to do all of them but again that is ONE DAY!!

But then I stop and think ... I don't live with my parents, I drive a car & have a licence, I support myself, I organise my life, I stand up for my rights, I am totally and utterly independent. I am an adult. I am 22 years old. I have lived in many different countries. I have jumped out of planes. I have rockclimbed. I have had many different experiences. I am an independent adult who knows what she likes and what she doesn't.

But I still think I won't have marriage, sex, or kids anytime in the super near future. ;p No matter how adult I am, ONE DAY is not today. :D