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blue nurse

A random blog which informs about my life's events, strange insights and the occasion complaint ... if you can handle all that, then maybe we can talk about becoming friends

Location: Sydney, New South Wales, Australia

I am a registered nurse, living in Sydney, about to begin my first year of real work. I grew up around the Pacific and have friends from various parts of the world ... mainly AUS, PNG, & USA. Recently I fell in love with travel and would love to do more. I think it would be awesome to have friends in every country and really get to know the locals therefore having a more indepth experience of the culture than just being an average tourist. I have a passion for education, stopping poverty, caring for the elderly, and the freedom for people to have alternative lifestyles. It would be a mad experience to work with the United Nations, Amnesty International or a likewise organisation to help eliminate poverty - I know, I know, bit of a Bleeding Heart and all that ... but I like it. :)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007


It is really is a strange feeling growing up. Sometimes I feel like I am still a little kid playing dress ups and trying to be an adult. Most of the time, I am faking it just trying to make it.

I was discussing with an old highschool friend which one of our friends we thought would get pregnant first ... and apart from one who is married (& it has been confirmed, that she is not overly interested in having children), I supposely am in the running for being second (only one other friend has a steady boyfriend ... in all honestly, I am putting my money on her ... they have been going out tons longer!). KIDS?!?! ME?!?!?

I mean, I have always thought, yeah, one day ... but that is exactly it ... ONE DAY IN THE FUTURE!! I don't think marriage or sex is where i am at, at the moment. I mean, don't get me wrong ... I don't view these things as bad ... one day I plan to do all of them but again that is ONE DAY!!

But then I stop and think ... I don't live with my parents, I drive a car & have a licence, I support myself, I organise my life, I stand up for my rights, I am totally and utterly independent. I am an adult. I am 22 years old. I have lived in many different countries. I have jumped out of planes. I have rockclimbed. I have had many different experiences. I am an independent adult who knows what she likes and what she doesn't.

But I still think I won't have marriage, sex, or kids anytime in the super near future. ;p No matter how adult I am, ONE DAY is not today. :D

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

My life's update!

Well, a lot has happened since my last post ... a lot!! I will try to be quick! :D

- I got a boyfriend ... his name is Michael & he is FANASTIC!! :D We celebrated our 5th month anniversary the other week (yep, it really is that long since I last posted!). Michael is really smart -- he has to be an engineer (or studying to be one, anyway) :D You can check out photos of my man at myspace site! :D

- I got my driver's licence ... it only took two tries and I really really love driving ... it was so scary driving by myself when I first did it! :D

- I have a car - a beautiful Toyota Corolla '91 hatchback, 5 door that has been looked after so very well & I got a really good deal on it from a friend from church :D I have named this beautiful car Jessie Peanut - in memory of the last owner & because it is cute like the peanuts that I love! :D

- I have joined Karate (Michael is a Red belt & his sister, Liesl is the sensai - teacher) and am a White bealt with a yellow tip ... it is lots of fun ... even went in my first tourament & competed against 40+ females that were 2 belts higher than me ... because all other white and yellow belts my age were chicken!! :D

- I have joined Latino Dancing lessons ... a group of us go once a week and I love it ... the timing catches me out some times but I love dancing. And Latino style is so sexy :D Learn a bit of Salsa and other great great sexy dancing! :D

- I am trying to be more involved at church ... have helped out at a garage sale, a couple of youth social events & will be hosting my very own social event at my house in roughly a month's time ... 70s night with great food, games, & prizes for the best dressed!! :D

- My New Grad program is almost over ... 4 months to go!!! :( It is really scary!! Now I really have to figure out what I want to do with my life!! I have worked in a Surgical ward - neurosurgery (ah, no!), Medical ward - oncology (ah, no!), and Cardiac Cath Lab (ah no!) and will be going to Day Surgery in a month's time! Basically, I have learnt tons and tons this past year but have not found my deep desire and passion for a particular area of nursing!! It is kinda depressing!! All I know is that I don't want to work weekends ... I can't stand shift work and I would prefer if my patients were long term patients but then I also am kinda interested in the whole triage nursing and helping out in emergency situations!! And I am kinda interested in mental health, sexual health, aged care ... Ahhh!! What is kinda frustrating is that I need to find a job in my current hospital for just one for year because I had a two year scholarship!! And I have no deep desire to go anyway ... I am just looking for a job that challenges me, is interesting, doesn't have shiftwork, has a great supportive team, and I don't have to be locked into it for my entire life!! I am even thinking of going back to uni ... but to study what ... I have no idea!! This past year I have just cancelled out things more than pick something I love ... it is going to be a slow process ... with at least 70 different jobs avaliable in nursing, I can assure you that this will not be the last time i will complain about this! :D

- I have been to Melbourne for Bonnie's mum's wedding & Michael meet majority of my melbourne friends & life :D Lots of fun!! :D Awesome roadtrip home!! :D

- My folks came to visit which was awesome!! :D Didn't see them as much as I normally do as i had work commitments but it was still great!

- Went to Canberra for an Adventist Students Society event ... very cold but got to dress up at a Snow Ball which was lots of fun!! :D It was a fun weekend & got to meet lots of Michael's friends from SASS :D

- Will be going hiking in a few weeks with the church pathfinders .... my first time hiking in 4 or 5 yrs!! Hope I can still read a map!! but it should be fun!! :D

- I have been a bit sick lately ... I think in total I have been sick three times in the past two months!! I am sick at the moment ... I have lost my voice ... today is the 4th day in a row, that my voice is missing!! I normally enjoy how strange my voice sounds but 4 days is total crap!! :( I don't know what is up with me ... maybe it is the cold house I live in, or the fact work is really crap and I don't like it and this is my body's way of telling that stress is not healthy, or maybe I am just not eating well enough! i just don't know! :(

- Oh, and I moved out of the dorms into a cold house :D Nice walking distance to work, and pretty spacious ... pretty cold housemates on the whole ... a few household maintenance things to do ... Kylie and I had so much fun decorating & Michael has been a fanastic handy man and has taught me how to fix concrete stairs & install sensor solar lights etc. :D (Did I mention that my boyfriend is fanastic!?)

And I would say that is about it ... my life is going pretty well at the moment ... it is just my health and my work that is a bit worrying :P Catch ya later

Thursday, May 10, 2007

The day from hell!

Well, I got up this morning quite tired as I had worked quite hard yesterday, had a chiropractor appointment & then led out in cell ... yep, definiately was tired.

Had handover and then hit the ward.

As I was getting myself organised ... a couple of things happened:
a doctor rang and wanted his paitent to have a CT abdo instead of a Xray abdo & wanted me to organise it
a patient complained of shortness of breath (very serous complaint)
a confused lady wanted to pass urine yet was quite shaky on her feet & had a bit of pain on her hip & therefore the assistant got her a pan
I had a patient due to be transfered to a Nursing Home & had transport booked at 1000hrs therefore needed showering, feeding, packing & paperwork ... all to be organised at least by 0930hrs in case transport came early
another patient complained of pain yet was Nil by Mouth therefore needed to have panadol put up by IV
A patient had an extensive complaint about the fact she had to share a room with a lady she thought of as a pig ... snoring, burbing etc. throughout the past two days
The lady who one of the assistants put on the pan to pass urine climbed out of bed, put the pan on the floor & stood over the pan to pass urine & then got stuck in that position .. yep, she was confused!!
A wardsman came to pick up my lady who was going for the CT abdo ... and I realised that I hadn't changed the test she was going to have ... she was booked for a X-ray & I hadn't changed it after I got the phone call from the Dr ... therefore the X-ray had to be cancelled and her abdo CT had to be booked .. for later in the shift
One of my ladies went for a Renal Ultrasound (things did need to be done to prep for it!)
The lady who had the IV panadol up was also confused & starting saying things like the panadol was giving her diarhoea ... in other words, she soiled her bed & needed to have a second shower & second bed change!!
One of patient stated that a man from the hospital trasnport service came and saw her & introduced himself to her as he would be the man driving her to the Rehab Hospital today - the patient freaked out as she thought she was going tomorrow (as she just had surgery yesterday!!), the Rehab Hospital rang to check if she was coming & the Dr came to review ... thankfully she was staying another night but there was at least 1/2hr down the drain.
Then all of the sudden, the confused lady (the one who stood over her pan) starting crying after her shower complaining of pain in her hip (which made me wonder if we really should have gotten her up for a shower!) & we had to call the doctor to get an order of morphine for her which helped settle her a lot
And one of the patients who had blood in her stool last night needed to have stool speciems obtained and send to Pathology ... all morning I was waiting for this ... but did get it in the end!! Thankfully, this patient is NOT confused! :)

Basically, nothing was flowing nicely at all ... then 2 major things (even tho I do realise they are minor things really!) happened ... I was suppose to have 2 assistants this morning (sharing them with other RNs, of course!). One I knew from yesterday and we managed to sort out our working relationship & she worked quite well with me today ... the other one I had never meet ... but all of a sudden I found her in the room showering the patient who was due for a discharge to a Nursing Home ... I introduced myself & ensured I did the careful wording of "so, we are working in a team today" instead "so, YOU are working for ME, today, huh?" yet she took one look at me (I could almost see her mind tick over as she took in how young I was & I am positive she recognised me from when I was a student nurse on this ward) & ended up being really rude to me stating things like "I don't know!! I am being shared between three teams so you are expect too much of me today!! Oh, and so you know for next time, I was only allocated 1hr to you so I only shower 1 patient for you. This patient is the only patient I will shower ... don't ask me to do any more! SOMEONE ELSE told me he was being transferred today!! I have showered him so don't TALK TO ME!!" (that last bit was later on, when I stopped her & asked her how she was going with all her patients & if she was holding up ok!!!! Good grief!!!)

The second major (yet minor) issue happened at 0930 when an high and mightly clinical specialist nurse (sounds all technical but basically, her nursing is narrowed into a specific field!) came into my patient's room and found the patient still in bed. She was then quite rude to me in re: to why this patient had not been mobilisied after her surgery (as in this particular surgery, the patient needs to start mobilising straight away!) & why she was still in bed! (BY THE WAY, ANY NURSE WHO HAS EVER WORKED ON THE WARD KNOWS THAT IT IS A MIRACLE IF YOU HAVE ALL, AND I MEAN ALL, YOUR PATIENTS UP & SHOWERED BY 0930!!!). Thankfully, the team leader came around just then to help hand out the DD (Dangerous Drugs) Drugs (e.g. morphine etc.) & this RUDE lady demonstrated her attitude to her ... stating the patient had no pain so she didn't need to be on such strong pain relief (Um, lady, it is the Dr's call to cease such strong pain relief ... there could be potential terrible results if we suddenly took this patient off her pain relief!). My team leader was great - stating the patient wasn't in pain as she was taking this pain relief etc. But I was so offended & upset ... this dear patient, I have looked after for the past week & I have always gotten her up for a walk & mobilised her & she had just complained of pain a bit earlier so I said we might wait till she has had her DD med & then get her up for a shower then which was fine with the patient (it is called implementing good time management!). I was so upset that this stupid lady was indicating that I was not caring for my patient (my favourite patient) well enough ... I just starting crying & since I couldn't leave the team leader with the DD meds (policy to have 2 RNs at all times with the trolley) I ended up crying in front of the patient ... her grabbing my hand & saying things like "I didn't get you into trouble, did I, dear? You are such a wonderful nurse! I love you looking after me" was wonderful but just didn't help stop the tears! I just had to leave the ward then and there! :(

Thankfully, I have a good relationship with the Educator & we had morning tea together & once people knew I was just having a shitty day, I had a fair bit of support ... still hard going & it just didn't seem to stop .... things not working out etc. It was terrible!!

Even the hope that my hope that I would lose a patient since he was being transferred to a Nursing Home didn't happen ... when the ambulance came to pick him up, they couldn't wake him up ... really really unresponsive & his level of consciousness had dropped ... had to do obs, BSL (blood sugar level - just in case!), and then the CMO (Dr on call, basically) came & reviewed him & decided that he wouldn't be discharged & he needed to have bloods taken, a CT of the brain to be booked & an ECG (test of the heart basically) done. I then needed to run to the heard ward & borrow the ECG machine & take this patient's ECG ... I did it with the Educator but somehow we only printed out half the ECG ... so when the CMO came around a bit later, we needed to redo the ECG (meaning, running back to the heart ward, reborrowing the machine, and reconnecting the machine to 10 different leads!!) & then it just wouldn't read one of the leads!!! I grabbed the team leader & the educator to help me ... & they ended up needing to call Clinical Support & sending me for lunch (as it was almost 2pm!) The ECG did end up being done but WOW!! It was just a bit crazy!

And basically, that was my day (normally, there are meds, showers, obs, meds, obs, and maybe some tests) - a truly BAD day! I am thankful that I only had to stay 1/2hr late ... and that is mainly because of the ward staff meeting we had after lunch!

So, yes, I cried! AGAIN!! And yes! I had to learn to get along with a huge variety of people!! And i had to learn how to ask for help & care for myself as well as 6 other people! Let me tell you one thing, nursing is a truly draining job!! It is hard. It is tiring. It is demanding.

But as the cleaner pointed out today - it is the sort of job you need to have a passion for. And I guess this year, is the year where I find out if I have a passion for nursing. It is the trials that test my passion. And i pray that I continue to be so determined & stubborn to have a passion for nursing & force myself to return to work after having shitty days like today.

Anyway, that was my day - just wanted to share - it has been a while since I had a good BITCH!! :D

Oh, but my favourite patient is discharging tomorrow & I said goodbye to her at the end of my shift & both her & her sister gave me hugs & said the nicest things about my nursing ... at least, the shift ended on a good note, huh? :D

Thanks for listening to my vent & rant & rave! :D

Sunday, May 06, 2007

The world is not a nice place.

I just came across a trailer for a movie called "The Road to Guantanamo" & the trailer alone made me cry. It about three British muslims who get kidnapped & taken to Guantanamo without trial or conviction. Check it out here:


Whatever happened to Human Rights?

Universal Declaration of Human Rights

Article 1.
All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights.They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.

Article 2.
Everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration, without distinction of any kind, such as race, colour, sex, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status. Furthermore, no distinction shall be made on the basis of the political, jurisdictional or international status of the country or territory to which a person belongs, whether it be independent, trust, non-self-governing or under any other limitation of sovereignty.

Article 3.
Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person.

Article 4.
No one shall be held in slavery or servitude; slavery and the slave trade shall be prohibited in all their forms.

Article 5.
No one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or punishment.

Article 6.
Everyone has the right to recognition everywhere as a person before the law.

Article 7.
All are equal before the law and are entitled without any discrimination to equal protection of the law. All are entitled to equal protection against any discrimination in violation of this Declaration and against any incitement to such discrimination.

Article 8.
Everyone has the right to an effective remedy by the competent national tribunals for acts violating the fundamental rights granted him by the constitution or by law.

Article 9.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary arrest, detention or exile.

Article 10.
Everyone is entitled in full equality to a fair and public hearing by an independent and impartial tribunal, in the determination of his rights and obligations and of any criminal charge against him.

Article 11.
(1) Everyone charged with a penal offence has the right to be presumed innocent until proved guilty according to law in a public trial at which he has had all the guarantees necessary for his defence.
(2) No one shall be held guilty of any penal offence on account of any act or omission which did not constitute a penal offence, under national or international law, at the time when it was committed. Nor shall a heavier penalty be imposed than the one that was applicable at the time the penal offence was committed.

Article 12.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary interference with his privacy, family, home or correspondence, nor to attacks upon his honour and reputation. Everyone has the right to the protection of the law against such interference or attacks.

Article 13.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of movement and residence within the borders of each state.
(2) Everyone has the right to leave any country, including his own, and to return to his country.

Article 14.
(1) Everyone has the right to seek and to enjoy in other countries asylum from persecution.
(2) This right may not be invoked in the case of prosecutions genuinely arising from non-political crimes or from acts contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.

Article 15.
(1) Everyone has the right to a nationality.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his nationality nor denied the right to change his nationality.

Article 16.
(1) Men and women of full age, without any limitation due to race, nationality or religion, have the right to marry and to found a family. They are entitled to equal rights as to marriage, during marriage and at its dissolution.
(2) Marriage shall be entered into only with the free and full consent of the intending spouses.
(3) The family is the natural and fundamental group unit of society and is entitled to protection by society and the State.

Article 17.
(1) Everyone has the right to own property alone as well as in association with others.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his property.

Article 18.
Everyone has the right to freedom of thought, conscience and religion; this right includes freedom to change his religion or belief, and freedom, either alone or in community with others and in public or private, to manifest his religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship and observance.

Article 19.
Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.

Article 20.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of peaceful assembly and association.
(2) No one may be compelled to belong to an association.

Article 21.
(1) Everyone has the right to take part in the government of his country, directly or through freely chosen representatives.
(2) Everyone has the right of equal access to public service in his country.
(3) The will of the people shall be the basis of the authority of government; this will shall be expressed in periodic and genuine elections which shall be by universal and equal suffrage and shall be held by secret vote or by equivalent free voting procedures.

Article 22.
Everyone, as a member of society, has the right to social security and is entitled to realization, through national effort and international co-operation and in accordance with the organization and resources of each State, of the economic, social and cultural rights indispensable for his dignity and the free development of his personality.

Article 23.
(1) Everyone has the right to work, to free choice of employment, to just and favourable conditions of work and to protection against unemployment.
(2) Everyone, without any discrimination, has the right to equal pay for equal work.
(3) Everyone who works has the right to just and favourable remuneration ensuring for himself and his family an existence worthy of human dignity, and supplemented, if necessary, by other means of social protection.
(4) Everyone has the right to form and to join trade unions for the protection of his interests.

Article 24.
Everyone has the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay.

Article 25.
(1) Everyone has the right to a standard of living adequate for the health and well-being of himself and of his family, including food, clothing, housing and medical care and necessary social services, and the right to security in the event of unemployment, sickness, disability, widowhood, old age or other lack of livelihood in circumstances beyond his control.
(2) Motherhood and childhood are entitled to special care and assistance. All children, whether born in or out of wedlock, shall enjoy the same social protection.

Article 26.
(1) Everyone has the right to education. Education shall be free, at least in the elementary and fundamental stages. Elementary education shall be compulsory. Technical and professional education shall be made generally available and higher education shall be equally accessible to all on the basis of merit.
(2) Education shall be directed to the full development of the human personality and to the strengthening of respect for human rights and fundamental freedoms. It shall promote understanding, tolerance and friendship among all nations, racial or religious groups, and shall further the activities of the United Nations for the maintenance of peace.
(3) Parents have a prior right to choose the kind of education that shall be given to their children.

Article 27.
(1) Everyone has the right freely to participate in the cultural life of the community, to enjoy the arts and to share in scientific advancement and its benefits.
(2) Everyone has the right to the protection of the moral and material interests resulting from any scientific, literary or artistic production of which he is the author.

Article 28.
Everyone is entitled to a social and international order in which the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration can be fully realized.

Article 29.
(1) Everyone has duties to the community in which alone the free and full development of his personality is possible.
(2) In the exercise of his rights and freedoms, everyone shall be subject only to such limitations as are determined by law solely for the purpose of securing due recognition and respect for the rights and freedoms of others and of meeting the just requirements of morality, public order and the general welfare in a democratic society.
(3) These rights and freedoms may in no case be exercised contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.

Article 30.
Nothing in this Declaration may be interpreted as implying for any State, group or person any right to engage in any activity or to perform any act aimed at the destruction of any of the rights and freedoms set forth herein.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

My life's update

Hey all!!

What can I say? I have been so busy lately ... so busy I just haven't been able to post blogs or keep in touch with ANYONE (yep, my parents are starting to wonder if they actually do have a daughter or if I am just a (bitter) sweet memory/iilusion!!).

Well, I am now working on Onology (cancer) which so far as been ok ... the staff on this ward are so much nicer than before. I still have anxiety attacks & stress out but I have conquered the steep learning curve of Rotation 1. I know it won't all be down hill from here but I think I have learnt some coping methods which will make things easier to handle. I haven't lost a patient yet but it is only a matter of time ... pretty scary & I reckon I will be a bit of mess when it happens but it is one of those things a nurse needs to face. :p

My social life is kinda down the toilet but I am able to still do stuff ... not much but some. Michael & I took off randomly & saw Kris & Chris last week for a quick visit which was really nice!! :D I miss my college mates! :(

Actually, am planning on going paintballing at the end of this month! :D Wahoo!! :D Top three things on my list to do (eventually) is: paintballing, white water rafting (bit cold - may need to wait a bit) & suba diving (of course, it is handy that my b/f goes on a semi-regularly basis, huh?).

Stuff at church & cell is going well ... it can be hard because I don't always have work off on Sat morning & Wed evening but when I do get to go, I enjoy it! :D I will be in a play this coming weekend (nothing too exciting ... 3 lines, but it is a start ... and since I haven't acted in ages and ages, it will be a nice beginning!). And I may just be leading out at cell in the near future. :p

Driving is going well... got the hours but I just don't have the confidence or the experience ... but definiately working towards a licence. :D

May be going hiking in October!! I miss hiking!! So I am really excited!! Just need to get equipment!! :D Hiking!! Camping!! Wahoo!! :D I miss all that stuff so much! :D

Oh, and just because I can, Michael & I celebrated our 1 month anniversary yesterday!!! He brought me roses!! :D

Ok, sorry, just had to gush for 5 secs. It's ok. I have a grip on myself now! :D

Well, that's about all the news for the moment ... what can I say - I am becoming quite boring with working ALL the time!

Hope you are all going well & finding some time for yourselves! :D

Blue Nurse

Saturday, April 21, 2007

He caught my eye ...

In the middle of a crowded room, I saw him.
Pretty good looking, a nice person, nice eyes
And before I knew it, our eyes meet & we were sharing a private joke across a crowded room

Now, before you start to overanalyse this situation & guess about my love life, just think of how familiar this situation is. I reckon everyone has managed to connect with somone else without needing to speak words ... even if the connection was not overly strong or lasted very long. But for some strange reason, I reckon we all crave it.

To connect with another peron... this is the purpose of life ... or at least a very big part of life.

Recently I have heard some cool 'connection' quotes that i thought I would share:

In the movie 'Before Sunrise' the main characters are discussing God & the chick reckons that God is in the attempt people make in trying to connect with another person ... the distance between two people is where God is at.

In the sequel, 'Before Sunset' the same girl states she would prefer to be alone than be lonely next to her lover.

Which is closely linked to the quote I hear in church today: Crowded lonliness ... having so many things happening in your life ... work, church, family, uni, community service, sport ... that practically you are running from one activity to the next with no real interaction between the different areas ... crowded lonliness ... no one goes through the journey with you & meets all the different areas & CARES enough about you to find out about the different areas.

And maybe it is because we crave for someone to care, that we become desperate for someone to notice us, to connect with us across a crowded room. Because we crave, we make silly mistakes, we ignore problems & cling to the ideal that someone cares when really they may not even know we exist.

It is sad but I reckon it is true. Now, I am not saying that we should become solely independent & try to forget this craving desire for someone to connect with us. To do this would be to try to kill a part of ourselves ... which a) would not be fun & b) not really solve anything. What I reckon we should do is be realistic ... even if someone does care ... you need to care in return ... actually that would be great start ... it can be surprising the number of people who start to care about your life when you start to care about theirs.

In the movie 'Frequency' a son is given another chance to live life with his dad ... to reconnect & rekinkle a relationship that at one stage was tragically cut short. It finishes beautifully with the true Blue American family (3 generations) playing a game of backyard baseball ... everyone happy & having fun!! And as beautiful as it is ... (& I will try to not let my cynical side point out some serious story plot mishaps), it doesn't happen. People are not given a second chance with loved ones who have passed away.

So, I guess my point is ... don't wait for the second chance that won't be coming ... do it right with the first chance ... try to bridge the connection gap with another person TODAY!!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007


Well, it has been a super duper long time since I last wrote ... a lot has happened. My life as a rollarcoaster!!! :D Yahoo!! :D

Ok, some highlights:
  • Went wake boarding!!! So mad!! I will be getting this super cool video of it ... I had trouble getting up for ages but everyone was really supportive & I finally got up!! Yahoo!!! :D And I loved it!!! Must go again!! Must!!! And maybe try water skiing & the biscuit etc. Lots of fun!! :D
  • Am getting more involved with Fox church ... I will admit that I don't love everything about any church I have ever been to but ... I am learning to accept that church is imperfect. Anyway, am becoming more committed to my cell grp ... and am learning to open up a bit and receive help and support which is always healthy!! :D And I am really tell too ... I have had some trouble recently with work & those you knew abuot it (my internet & overseas friends are off the hook as they didn't know & I have been snobbing EVERYONE!!) have been so wonderful ... cards, msgs, phone calls, emails, just lots of care & support ... thank you to everyone!! Knowing that you are not alone can help so much when you have problems you need to face. :)
  • Oh, I am going skydiving for my birthday - april 8! :D Wahoo!! :D I am super duper excited ... and scared ... but I have paid the deposit now all I have to do is ... not think about it & jump!!! We will see if it works out ... and if not, then you will know why my blog has not been updated ... oh, and my bro, Chris is reading my lifestory at my funernal, ok? :D Oh, and what is just as exciting as jumping out of a plane, if not more exciting, is that my highschool buddy, Katrina is coming up from Melbourne to jump with me ... i always said I didn't want to die alone!! :D So exciting ... 4 days off work, sleep, socialise, skydive, and hang out!! :D
  • I moved out of the dorms!!! (And they all said: Amen!!) I live near my work with 3 others - 2 guys & 1 girl... it is pretty good. I don't really know one guy but he lives downstairs and is pretty self contained!! :D us upstairs are all friends and pretty laid back!! :D Still adjusting to being in a house and being able to put some of my stuff outside my room etc. but I am enjoying it. But amazingly enough i do miss something about the dorm ... no dryers, no spare washing machines or bathrooms, and no spare TVs ... but I honestly think i can live quite well without all that!!! :D Kylie & I are having our first social this Saturday night ... not a housewarming or a birthday party or anything really upkey ... just relaxed, make toasted sandwiches or haystacks, and watch a movie with friends ... we will see if we can handle this before going onto gourmet dinners (and learning how to cook too!!)
  • I went to yo's 21st birthday party!! A bit late but awesome, none the less! :D Latino style party, outside, fairy lights, lots of food, Salsa instructors to teach us how to dance, speeches (even made one myself!) & lot s of fun!! Yolanda looked totally beautiful ... very latino & very happy!! :D Happy Birthday, Yo!! :D
  • I went to a Easter story with the local Uniting Church ... very interactive & very well done. Good music, good moving from room to room, good story, good acting, ... was very very impressed by everyone!! :D

Some low lights:

  • I lost my internet connection & I desperately need a laptop so I can get it back. Just too buggered from work to actually go laptop shopping ... one day soon. I don't think I can last much longer!! :D
  • I have had a lot of adjusting issues re: work & various people & learning new things etc. Sometimes it can be very overwhelming and hard to please EVERYONE & do what is right ... as well!! :( Am getting there ... still tough, though.
  • I have been snobbing most of my friends ... internet, overseas or not. I haven't visited my college mates for such a long time & even my neighbour hasn't seen me too much either. I sometimes feel like a zombie ... just working day in and day out ... no time for anyone else when i finish my shift because I am totally drained ... pls never do shift work ... it just isn't worth it, k?
Anyway, I was suppose to have an early night tonight & it just hasn't happened ... so i should go & just try to have some sleep.

I hope you are all doing well,

Love & laughter

Blue Nurse