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blue nurse

A random blog which informs about my life's events, strange insights and the occasion complaint ... if you can handle all that, then maybe we can talk about becoming friends

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Location: Sydney, New South Wales, Australia

I am a registered nurse, living in Sydney, about to begin my first year of real work. I grew up around the Pacific and have friends from various parts of the world ... mainly AUS, PNG, & USA. Recently I fell in love with travel and would love to do more. I think it would be awesome to have friends in every country and really get to know the locals therefore having a more indepth experience of the culture than just being an average tourist. I have a passion for education, stopping poverty, caring for the elderly, and the freedom for people to have alternative lifestyles. It would be a mad experience to work with the United Nations, Amnesty International or a likewise organisation to help eliminate poverty - I know, I know, bit of a Bleeding Heart and all that ... but I like it. :)

Saturday, April 21, 2007

He caught my eye ...

In the middle of a crowded room, I saw him.
Pretty good looking, a nice person, nice eyes
And before I knew it, our eyes meet & we were sharing a private joke across a crowded room

Now, before you start to overanalyse this situation & guess about my love life, just think of how familiar this situation is. I reckon everyone has managed to connect with somone else without needing to speak words ... even if the connection was not overly strong or lasted very long. But for some strange reason, I reckon we all crave it.

To connect with another peron... this is the purpose of life ... or at least a very big part of life.

Recently I have heard some cool 'connection' quotes that i thought I would share:

In the movie 'Before Sunrise' the main characters are discussing God & the chick reckons that God is in the attempt people make in trying to connect with another person ... the distance between two people is where God is at.

In the sequel, 'Before Sunset' the same girl states she would prefer to be alone than be lonely next to her lover.

Which is closely linked to the quote I hear in church today: Crowded lonliness ... having so many things happening in your life ... work, church, family, uni, community service, sport ... that practically you are running from one activity to the next with no real interaction between the different areas ... crowded lonliness ... no one goes through the journey with you & meets all the different areas & CARES enough about you to find out about the different areas.

And maybe it is because we crave for someone to care, that we become desperate for someone to notice us, to connect with us across a crowded room. Because we crave, we make silly mistakes, we ignore problems & cling to the ideal that someone cares when really they may not even know we exist.

It is sad but I reckon it is true. Now, I am not saying that we should become solely independent & try to forget this craving desire for someone to connect with us. To do this would be to try to kill a part of ourselves ... which a) would not be fun & b) not really solve anything. What I reckon we should do is be realistic ... even if someone does care ... you need to care in return ... actually that would be great start ... it can be surprising the number of people who start to care about your life when you start to care about theirs.

In the movie 'Frequency' a son is given another chance to live life with his dad ... to reconnect & rekinkle a relationship that at one stage was tragically cut short. It finishes beautifully with the true Blue American family (3 generations) playing a game of backyard baseball ... everyone happy & having fun!! And as beautiful as it is ... (& I will try to not let my cynical side point out some serious story plot mishaps), it doesn't happen. People are not given a second chance with loved ones who have passed away.

So, I guess my point is ... don't wait for the second chance that won't be coming ... do it right with the first chance ... try to bridge the connection gap with another person TODAY!!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Hi!!

Well, it has been a super duper long time since I last wrote ... a lot has happened. My life as a rollarcoaster!!! :D Yahoo!! :D

Ok, some highlights:
  • Went wake boarding!!! So mad!! I will be getting this super cool video of it ... I had trouble getting up for ages but everyone was really supportive & I finally got up!! Yahoo!!! :D And I loved it!!! Must go again!! Must!!! And maybe try water skiing & the biscuit etc. Lots of fun!! :D
  • Am getting more involved with Fox church ... I will admit that I don't love everything about any church I have ever been to but ... I am learning to accept that church is imperfect. Anyway, am becoming more committed to my cell grp ... and am learning to open up a bit and receive help and support which is always healthy!! :D And I am really tell too ... I have had some trouble recently with work & those you knew abuot it (my internet & overseas friends are off the hook as they didn't know & I have been snobbing EVERYONE!!) have been so wonderful ... cards, msgs, phone calls, emails, just lots of care & support ... thank you to everyone!! Knowing that you are not alone can help so much when you have problems you need to face. :)
  • Oh, I am going skydiving for my birthday - april 8! :D Wahoo!! :D I am super duper excited ... and scared ... but I have paid the deposit now all I have to do is ... not think about it & jump!!! We will see if it works out ... and if not, then you will know why my blog has not been updated ... oh, and my bro, Chris is reading my lifestory at my funernal, ok? :D Oh, and what is just as exciting as jumping out of a plane, if not more exciting, is that my highschool buddy, Katrina is coming up from Melbourne to jump with me ... i always said I didn't want to die alone!! :D So exciting ... 4 days off work, sleep, socialise, skydive, and hang out!! :D
  • I moved out of the dorms!!! (And they all said: Amen!!) I live near my work with 3 others - 2 guys & 1 girl... it is pretty good. I don't really know one guy but he lives downstairs and is pretty self contained!! :D us upstairs are all friends and pretty laid back!! :D Still adjusting to being in a house and being able to put some of my stuff outside my room etc. but I am enjoying it. But amazingly enough i do miss something about the dorm ... no dryers, no spare washing machines or bathrooms, and no spare TVs ... but I honestly think i can live quite well without all that!!! :D Kylie & I are having our first social this Saturday night ... not a housewarming or a birthday party or anything really upkey ... just relaxed, make toasted sandwiches or haystacks, and watch a movie with friends ... we will see if we can handle this before going onto gourmet dinners (and learning how to cook too!!)
  • I went to yo's 21st birthday party!! A bit late but awesome, none the less! :D Latino style party, outside, fairy lights, lots of food, Salsa instructors to teach us how to dance, speeches (even made one myself!) & lot s of fun!! Yolanda looked totally beautiful ... very latino & very happy!! :D Happy Birthday, Yo!! :D
  • I went to a Easter story with the local Uniting Church ... very interactive & very well done. Good music, good moving from room to room, good story, good acting, ... was very very impressed by everyone!! :D


Some low lights:

  • I lost my internet connection & I desperately need a laptop so I can get it back. Just too buggered from work to actually go laptop shopping ... one day soon. I don't think I can last much longer!! :D
  • I have had a lot of adjusting issues re: work & various people & learning new things etc. Sometimes it can be very overwhelming and hard to please EVERYONE & do what is right ... as well!! :( Am getting there ... still tough, though.
  • I have been snobbing most of my friends ... internet, overseas or not. I haven't visited my college mates for such a long time & even my neighbour hasn't seen me too much either. I sometimes feel like a zombie ... just working day in and day out ... no time for anyone else when i finish my shift because I am totally drained ... pls never do shift work ... it just isn't worth it, k?
Anyway, I was suppose to have an early night tonight & it just hasn't happened ... so i should go & just try to have some sleep.

I hope you are all doing well,

Love & laughter

Blue Nurse