All done!
It is starting to hit me that I am finished! My course!! I have all the information of a registered nurse ... wait, what? I HAVE ALL THE INFORMATION OF A REGISTERED NURSE!!! (I am having a recollection of a poster flash before my mind ... a train is doomed to destruction at the bottom of a mountain as it has gone off the tracks .... and the note underneath says Oh Shit!) Yeah, not such a good feeling!!
I mean, I enjoy the fact I can sleep in and recover from the past few weeks ... correction ... past few years! And I have so much to do with the planning of my trips overseas and weddings to go to and concerts and roadtrips ... all that savings and 'no buying' policy is going to really REALLY pay off ... it is not like I am bored and have nothing to do.
Actually, it is only when people ask about next year and my plans that I realise that I am finished ... it feels like I am just on holiday waiting for the semester to start ... but it actually is the next stage in my life. It is the step between student and profession. It is the implementation of the education I have had throughout my life. It is the coming of age (modern definition). It is the .... scariest thing to face me at this moment.
Don't get me wrong ... I want to graduate! I am happy that I am finished ... it is the mystery of the unknown; the change, the wonder, the RESPONSIBILITY that will come with graduation that I am just a little wary of.
But no matter how crappy, scared, bewildered etc. I may feel about next year, it is going to come weather I want it to or not. So really, I guess I should just suck it up, be a man (no, I am not going to get a sex change ... just use your imagination a bit, please!), and brace myself for the new year. I know I want to be a RN ... and a good one too; so I just have to get through the transition from student nurse to registered nurse ... somehow! Change is growth, so here I go ... ready to shot up another 10 inches (I have always wanted to be taller so that's an extra bonus!!)
God bless!! :D Blue Nurse
I mean, I enjoy the fact I can sleep in and recover from the past few weeks ... correction ... past few years! And I have so much to do with the planning of my trips overseas and weddings to go to and concerts and roadtrips ... all that savings and 'no buying' policy is going to really REALLY pay off ... it is not like I am bored and have nothing to do.
Actually, it is only when people ask about next year and my plans that I realise that I am finished ... it feels like I am just on holiday waiting for the semester to start ... but it actually is the next stage in my life. It is the step between student and profession. It is the implementation of the education I have had throughout my life. It is the coming of age (modern definition). It is the .... scariest thing to face me at this moment.
Don't get me wrong ... I want to graduate! I am happy that I am finished ... it is the mystery of the unknown; the change, the wonder, the RESPONSIBILITY that will come with graduation that I am just a little wary of.
But no matter how crappy, scared, bewildered etc. I may feel about next year, it is going to come weather I want it to or not. So really, I guess I should just suck it up, be a man (no, I am not going to get a sex change ... just use your imagination a bit, please!), and brace myself for the new year. I know I want to be a RN ... and a good one too; so I just have to get through the transition from student nurse to registered nurse ... somehow! Change is growth, so here I go ... ready to shot up another 10 inches (I have always wanted to be taller so that's an extra bonus!!)
God bless!! :D Blue Nurse
posted by blue nurse | 3:52 AM
3 Comments:
ALRIGHT!!! That's the kind of optimism I like to hear ;)
Hey, we should talk sometime this week - I'm on break for the rest of the week just doing homework ;)
Yey! So you're finally out of school! That's great!
How exciting!
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